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Miss Megan

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[17 Oct 2004|11:11am]
[ mood | ehh ]



[14 Oct 2004|06:05pm]

Welcome to my life ..Collapse )


[13 Oct 2004|07:46pm]
[ mood | emotionless. ]

New livejournal.  thats_____cute


[13 Oct 2004|05:35pm]
[ mood | EMOtional. ]

I hate being "Emo." Okay, so in these journals we can write anything we want or feel right? Well to be honest I know that if I were to write exactly how I feel, I know that some people assholes would comment and be like .. "your life isn't so bad" .. "stfu you stupid emo piece of shit" .. or my personal favorite "I don't want to read about your sad pitiful life and stop asking for people to feel sorry for you" ..because it's happened before .. well excuse me .. if you don't want to read it then don't fucking read it, no one said you had to. Anyway I feel like making a new journal soon just so I can have only the people I trust be added. Comment to be added on the new one.


[11 Oct 2004|12:14pm]
[ mood | angry ]

Last night was awesome I went to the mall with Nancy Eric and Terry. But I spent most of my time with Eric because Nancy and Terry DITCHED US. Well not really, we just lost them. But it was still cool. Then we all went back to Nancy's house and hung out and I slept over :D Best night in awhile. I missed Nancy so so so much<3

Anyway, if I do move, my Dad thinks it's probably going to be out of NJ. This effffing sucks :/


[09 Oct 2004|10:35pm]
[ mood | restless ]

Does anyobody have size 6 gauges that I could like borrow?



[09 Oct 2004|08:23am]
[ mood | sad ]

Wow this fucking sucks, I just found out some terrible news. I'm moving far away..


[06 Oct 2004|08:02pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Don't ask.  Okay, I was high.

Pictures !Collapse )


[05 Oct 2004|06:28pm]
[ mood | sore ]

Longest update in awhile .. Collapse )


[03 Oct 2004|08:38pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Mhmmmm, I want a boyfriend.

There exists a melody that just might change your mind if only I knew the key to sing to make you mine. -Hellogoodbye


[29 Sep 2004|07:33pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I'm leaving to go to North Carolina tomorrow, will you miss me? I'll be back Sunday. Leave me some comments, I'd love you forever and ever and ever!! Call me if you'd like - 908 839 6725 !!

I love you to death.


[28 Sep 2004|05:39pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Sometimes I think I am out of my league and then sometimes I think I can dream. Sometimes I wish I could be the one fish that you choose out of all in the sea. We are non existant, but I'll try to be persistant. I've gotta keep on if want to be close to you I know you're uninterested. I'm probably just some stupid kid. I could give up if you would want me to.

Hellogoodbye - If you wanna I might <3


[25 Sep 2004|07:43pm]
[ mood | jealous ]

I hate feeling like this. I hate looking the mirror. I hate myself. I hate that I am jealous and that I envy almost every person on this planet. I hate that I can't accept that this is how I am going to look forever. I hate how like ALL of my friends are so fucking pretty. I hate that I wish I was something that I'm not. I never really cared about what I looked like until highschool. There are so many pretty people, that it makes me sick. I used to think that it didnt matter, and now it's like a huge part of my life. I hate pictures. I hate when people stare at me. I hate .. this.

If I could just have one wish, it wouldn't be to be beautiful or pretty or anything like that but I would wish tha guys would come and fucking 'talk' to me before they are like ew she's so ugly, I won't like her, I'm not going to talk to her. It's seriously gay, and it fucking kills me. Most of the guys that have ever liked me, didn't like me at first, they became my friend and went on from there. And I hate being gay like this. I hate this, but I feel like maybe if I write it and let it out that I'll feel better.

No matter how many people tell me I'm not ugly, I wouldn't mean a thing .. I just want to hear it from you, because then maybe, I'll believe it.



[23 Sep 2004|07:09pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

I need a hug.


[22 Sep 2004|09:23pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I got my aim back whoo hoo, miss me ??

So, help me with my English homework. Comment + describe me in one word. But, you can't use words like awesome + amazing. They have to be like "real adjectives." Have fun :D

ilysm :/


[20 Sep 2004|04:55pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]


I'm out of ammunition. So I’ll take these words and fire then into your chest. Find a new place for them to rest. Sieze up your insides, tearing your flesh. Open up and let them in. I’ll write your name across the wall with all the blood that spills from my heart. Break my limbs and strech my skin until my hands can reach across the floor. Feel for this pile of broken glass. I’ll hand you the sharpest one to place it right in my back.

Will somebody please wake me up from this never ending nightmare?


[18 Sep 2004|08:27pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Friday was the game, it was cool went with Coliee<3 and met up with some sahweet people.

Today. Woke up @ 6 - and left for an Cross Country meet in Elizabeth - 3 miles of excitment .. NOT ... but I went with Colie :D ... Today was amazingg NOOTTT .. To start off I Didn't sleep on the bus because people were talking real loud. Then we get there and its raining. Walk like 2 miles to the bathroom, get there, theres no toilet paper, walk 2 miles back to the bus, and realized that there are port-o-potties?!? Walk to them, and they were locked. Get back on the bus and then we had to leave for our warm up jog thing, which sucked. I slipped and pulled something in my but :[ And was hysterically crying before the race, I was in so much fucking pain. But did Calabs care, not one fucking bit.

Hmm then we do another jog, hurt like hell, then the race starts. I sucked. Well I didnt actually but I felt so shitty. Seriously, everything went wrong today. Well then after the race wasn't too bad. Callled Peaches<3 But then we had to wait forevverr til we could leave. Get on the bus and find out that we're going to McDonalds and not Starbucks, I wanted to cry. The reason I went to the frikken race is because I found out that we were .. well were supposed to stop @ this place that had a Starbucks in it. Errrg that sucked. Get to Mcdonalds order a shit load of food and I didnt really eay any of it. I was to sick. I wanted to puke the entire way home.

.. It gets better; our bus breaks down and we were already running late and I was supposed to babysit right after the race. So I call my dad and hes like call your brother and tell him to pick you up where the bus broke down, so I call him up and my dad picks up and is like Sean left his cell home. So he's like I'll leave work and find Sean and pick you up. So then we find out that another bus is coming for us. So I get a hold of my dad and hes like well jsut take that to the HS and I'll talk you home from there. The bus pulls up, and guess what its the guys bus. We had to fit all the million members of our team on an already packed bus. That was mad gay. Had to sit with these two guys. So annyoing. And Jess was on my lap the whole way home. Get home, rush to get ready to babysit and find out that I was supposed to be there @ 4:30 not 3:30 so I was pissed. So I sat down to watch some tv and I fell asleep. And I woke up @ 4:40 .. yah it sucked so I get my bro and he drove me there .. lady wasnt pissed but I felt bad :[ O well i was tired. And then the kid erg was a brat I dont even wanna talk about it. And now Im home in madd pain pissed and sad and .. now im on the phone with kat trying to cheer up and toms here too.. erg today was pretty fucking shitty :/

And to top my lovely day off .. I've been so self conscious lately, it sucks. Like I see all these supper skinny pretty girls and Im like damn .. im so fugly .. this sucks :/

Ray thanks you did cheer me up<3 I love youu .. lol shh dont tell Colie ;D

Tomorrow something with Wayne / Steph HOPEFULLY i miss her <33

... yeah whateverrr laterr <3


[16 Sep 2004|03:15pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Which looks better blonde or brunette?



[15 Sep 2004|05:52pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I feel like crying. I need something to look foward too. Why the fuck am I so depressed lately. This sucks, whatever bye.


[13 Sep 2004|04:27pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Who's going to this ..

October 2nd "Last Band Standing" Concert
94 Johnson lane off of Frankapplegate rd in jackson
first band goes on at 4 ends when last band in done
Bands Playing-
Impaired Judgement
Crest Fallen
Frog Hollow
Winkeel Juist
Shattered the Spotlight
Your Best Friend
Cost - 10$ Free Food/ Drinks

or this ..

Hawthorne Heights
When: 9/21/04
Where: 4 Arboretum Drive (www.mapquest.com)
Doors: 5pm
Ticket Info: Advance Tickets are on sale now! The reduced
price for advance sale will be 12 dollars a ticket.
E-mail your ticket request to sts_tix@yahoo.com.
Include address and phone number. 4 ticket maximum
per person.



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